Is It A Dead End???

Today is Thursday...yeahhh..everyone knows it...On Saturday there will be another paper for my final examination....I don't know what I feel right now..it seems like everything turned to be wrong for me...all that I do seems to be such like a I'm a loser...yesterday's paper was suck...I really disappointed with my performance..it was a subject that I feel like I can score but then??? the questions was totally unexpected...even though I didn't focus on the all the wrong spot questions and tried to read everything in the book, still I can't answer the question..just imagine this..I went through the book and looked at this sub topic so many times but I never have feeling to read it because it never being such a popular question for several previous semesters...and finally when I got the question paper 'boooommmm'...!!! I feel like I wanna scream and of course I am such a loser at that time..I totally regret it..with all the nervousness I felt like I'm such an idiot in the hall because I couldn't recall perfectly what I've read before...now I still can't forget the moment sitting 3 hours in the exam hall and being an idiot...I blamed myself for such things..how can I be so careless and neglecting the sub-topic and also being such a clumsy person in the hall which later makes my brain blanked??? yesss...blanked!!!! I've read things but it's gone...even though not fully but still I can't accept the way I answer the question...here goes all my hopes to maintain my CGPA....the feeling is still here..if I didn't find any courage I think I may give up...yuppp...the stupidest thing that people will do and now I have thought of doing it...loser....the rest of the papers will be so though and when I couldn't make yesterday's paper perfectly what will happened next??? urghhhh...I feel so stress right now...I really losing my mood to study because I kept thinking about yesterday..I couldn't even smile when I stepped out from the exam hall yesterday...the day was totally horrible with all the disappointment...I just hope and pray that I'll found the courage that I need...I want things to be better for me but...hmmmm....this is so wrong for me....please...really2 need the strength.....

The Nerves is ON...this is horrible...!!!

OMG....the final exam will be started tomorrow...and for sure I am full of anxiety...every single words that I've read was not fully kept in my mind and that makes me double worries...damn..!!! really need something to steady my nerves I guess..but don't know how...keep reading is the best option I guess...urmmmm....that's the right thing to do..the exam is tomorrow and nothing's going to stop the time from running and chasing the day...oh God...help me please...give me some strength to do my best in my revision so that I can answer the question properly...tomorrow is the paper on Corporate Governance Practice of the Company Secretary...this course need so much reading with non-twist-able facts...every single key point will be counted and losing the key point will lead to a losing of valuable mark...it totally scares me already...the 3 hours moment sitting in the exam hall has started to haunt me..if I can scream loudly right now I'll do it...maybe the stress and the nerves will relieve a little..I just hope that I can do my best for this paper...keep hoping and praying of course...=)

Aku Takkan Bersuara...a song that originally sang by Nike Ardilla..this is a cover by Mila during AF5 concert..I really2 loves this song...Mila's voice was stunning when she sang this song....hmmm..cannot see the connection between this song with my entry right??? hahaha...actually there's connection because I think for this time being it is better if I do no talking so that I can concentrate more...hahaha...very bad connection..cannot understand???...I don't understand it either...oh gosh..I'm babbling and mumble without reasonable thoughts...this is very not me...at all...cehhh..ckp mcm selama ni ckp2 kau mcm bagus je..perasan sungguh..!!huhu..enough is enough....xoxo

HaPpy 21st BirthdaY to me...!!

Hello there...to my dearest blog I really miss you...huhu...today is my birthday..finally I reached the age of 21..urmmm...no longer young isn't it??? In a process to be matured I have to struggling by myself not to feel I am younger than anyone else...It's not wrong to admit by yourself that you are still young...ish at the age of early 20s...you are still young what..but one thing to remember is that as we are getting older the time for us in this world is getting shorter...yurp....this is the time for us actually to try to achieve anything that we want..put the target is the right thing to do..grab all the opportunities ahead and also, getting closer to God should be one of the mission..(baru la balance..Insya-Allah)...there's no more time left behind...we are moving forward and every time that we use and waste are counted...so let we think together k...what should we do next is fully depends on our sense to motivate ourself...so whatever it is I'm still in a mood to celebrate my birthday and I wish that I can achieve everything that I've targeted for my future..aminnn....xoxo

p/s: thanx for those who'd wished my birthday..may Allah bless all of us yaw...

Can't Wait to watch them but...

Tonight there will be Maharaja Lawak at 10 pm...as usual I'm so excited to watch because I am so into JOZAN right now...hehehe...they're superb man....(jgn puji lebih2 nt diorg riak..yela Melayu kan biase riak..I like Mamat Khalid...haha)...But unfortunately, I can't watch ML tonight because there's no Astro channel here...If I'm in my hometown bole la but here in Malacca??? urmm....it's ok la demi final ku....haha...and it's more okay as I still can watch ML on YouTube...huuuu....but kena tunggu la...xpe2..biar lambat asal selamat..cehhh....oh I almost forgot..in facebook there's also a page created for those who watched ML on YouTube...go check it out and like this page if you like it..haha....so, I wanna wish JOZAN the best for tonight....Good Luck JoZan!!!

This is their performance on week 3...Baby Baby Baby ohhh....

Ben 10 vs Safee 10

haha...seriously it was cute...damn cute...apekah?? Ben10 pakai jersey Malaysia....creative giler sape yg buat ni..kalo ko ade la dpn mata aku komfem aku suh ko edit Harry Potter ngan Justin Bieber pakai jersey Malaysia....huhu...papepun mari la kite melayan pic si Ben version Safee Sali ni.....

Ni I amek kat YouTube taw...

Ni yg da kena crop...credit to the pic editor...=) cute kann???

Ha sape ni??? Kalo tak kenal mmg nk kena ketuk kepala tu...heeee...gurau je la...

Keranamu Hatiku Malaysia

Heee...really sweet...watch the video and do enjoy the lyrics...kalo smgt bola nombor 1....erkkk...patriotik la kau ni....but actually this is the song composed by Lead for Hot.fm Lagu 1Malaysia Kita click here [da lame gak la]...but I still want to share this because Ultras Malaya has made it special..credit to the video creator the Yellow Mask for a creative editing ...cam terharu je kalo I am the footballer....hik3...enjoy!!

Kaulah wiraku yang berbakti untuk negara yang tercinta ini

Kamilah generasi baru yang akan menerajui perjuangan impian yang pasti

Dan kini kau menjadi lagenda hidupku

Berjanji kami bersatu padu

Agar sentiasa mengharumkan namamu

Oh Malaysia tanah airku yang tercinta

Rela kami korbankan segalanya

Jiwa raga dan juga harta benda

Keranamu hatiku Oh Malaysia

Tanah airku yang tercinta

Berikan kami kekuatan untuk

Manuju puncak gemilang

Menuju puncak terbilang

Manuju puncak gemilang

Menuju puncak terbilang

Kaulah wiraku yang berbakti untuk negara yang tercinta ini

Kamilah generasi baru yang akan menerajui perjuangan impian yang pasti

Dan kini kau menjadi lagenda hidupku

Berjanji kami bersatu padu

Agar sentiasa mengharumkan namamu

Oh Malaysia tanah airku yang tercinta

Rela kami korbankan segalanya

Jiwa raga dan juga harta benda

Keranamu hatiku Oh Malaysia

Tanah airku yang tercinta

Berikan kami kekuatan untuk

Manuju puncak gemilang

Menuju puncak terbilang

Manuju puncak gemilang

Menuju puncak terbilang

Dan kini kau menjadi lagenda hidupku

Berjanji kami bersatu padu

Agar sentiasa mengharumkan namamu

Oh Malaysia tanah airku yang tercinta

Rela kami korbankan segalanya

Jiwa raga dan juga harta benda

Keranamu hatiku Oh Malaysia

Tanah airku yang tercinta

Berikan kami kekuatan untuk

Manuju puncak gemilang

Menuju puncak terbilang

Manuju puncak gemilang

Menuju puncak terbilang

I feel better now....

Assalamualaikum and a very good day...huhu...nice meeting you again my dear blog...really2 miss you...haha...I feel very happy now because finally I expressed what I've felt before to someone...it is really good if you have someone to talk to rather than keeping it by yourself...it's all over now and it's time to move on and build a new day...a new happier day...insya-Allah...just forget all the things that may ruin your days and just do whatever you want as you really want it..don't bother about others that may make you feel 'hot' and angry...I am on my way to do that especially when I am so close with the final examination...so I just want to focus on my study and ignore anything that doesn't important to me...huhu...xoxo

Last night I watched this movie...what can I say?? Urmmm...Bradley Cooper was so hot....!!!!!haha

I also enjoying the taste of Big Mac while having a great conversation with a great buddy...awesome!!!

p/s:jom la kite study....nt tak sempat abes semua cmne??? nk jwb ape???

Tak semua perkara boleh diubati dgn perkataan 'MAAF'???

Maafkan saya...I'm sorry...what the hell is that??? Does sorry is the way for you to settle any kind of problems??? Think twice babe...the word sorry @ maaf is something that is really meaningful...please don't ever play with this word if you don't actually know the meaning...if you done a wrong thing, then you'll just say sorry...but have you ever thought how hurt that person was when you said or done something bad to her/him??? Just admit it and be honest...I can bet that many of you never realized this thing or maybe you do realized it but you just take it for granted...'ala da mintak maaf da la...lame2 dier mesti ok punyer'....that's it...just like that...you just say I'm sorry and then you keep doing the same mistake...hello...please ok...please don't be such a hypocrite person...let me tell you something...out there, there're people who may not simply give you a forgiveness...believe me...also, they may forgive you but deep inside their heart there is a wound that will stay there...they may try to forget but a history would always be a history...can you ever changed what had happened in past?? No right...??? So you better watch out whenever you say or do something to others...if they sincerely forgive you, then you'll be fine but if not.....??? You should think by your own....whatever it is, people make mistakes...that's normal...one of ways you may redeem your fault is by asking forgiveness...sincerely...!!!...and never repeat the same mistake ever again...people may be able to be patience once or twice but if it happen for so many times who else can bear it??? Nobody dear...nobody...kalo org yg jiwa kental maybe bole la kot....hehe...if it was me??? I can 'tahan' but surely it will takes time to forget or will never be able to forget...it's hard to forget something that hurts you babe...seriously...I am a sensitive person...very secretive so that nobody would know what I feel at a moment...if someone ever talked bad to me or they talked bad about me, I really2 can't accept it...trust me...I do know when people talking bad about me...if I was in that kind of situation, the most appropriate thing for me to do is just keep silence....yerp...silence...I won't talk to anyone and just do my own work...silently...I can be like that for the whole day and start talking the next day...isn't that bad??? Well that's me....nobody can change me for who I am...I was born to be me and just me...sometimes I feel bad when I ignore them but what else can I do...expecting me to talk and be friendly...with people who hurt me?? no way yaw...no way...actually I do that because I need time to heal and of course I need to chill myself...org tgh tacing plus marah kan...biase la...I don't care what people might called me...I just being myself...if they can't accept that, it's up to them...nak anyam ketupat pasal aku??? Ada aku kisah??? huhu...it's quite often that, when I get hurt, I never received the word 'sorry'.....well I don't care and I do forgave them (maybe)...maybe that word was too expensive for them so that they can't afford it...well I will only respect people who do respect me as a human being..no offence yaw...I just give you what you are deserve...if you are kind to me then I'll do the same to you...huhu..dramatic sungguh...tak kisah la...lagipun buat ape minta maaf kalo perbuatan yg sama diulang kan??? maybe ada baiknya simpan dulu sampai betul2 yakin tak akan buat salah lagi...yelah TAK SEMUA PERKARA BOLEH DIUBATI DGN PERKATAAN MAAF.....xoxo

p/s : sedangkan Nabi pun ampunkan umat inikan pulak kita sesama manusia....sesungguhnya memohon maaf sesama manusia adalah perkara yg mulia apatah lagi apabila kita memaafkan...wallahualam....

Bos JaHat Bos JahaT...!!

Sape jahat???? Boss??? Who's my boss?? I'm not yet working....so sape bos ni???? huuuuu...for those who watched MAHARAJA LAWAK last Friday will surely know this...don't know?? Nampak sgt you all tak focus...cannot be like that la....ok2...stop berbasa-basi...actually this is a part of Nabil's performance for last Friday's episode...he's damn cute...hahaha...so brilliant la his joke...just using flies in his performance he came up with a non-predictable idea...flies that sound like a piano...ape ke giler....but that's the fact...I really2 enjoy his performance...double thumbs' up for him..

p/s : JOZAN also tiptop taw...ahaha...always like them....

I suPpoRt J.O.Z.A.N for Maharaja Lawak......!!!

JOZAN??? this name is the combination of Johan and Zizan's name...they are both the finalist of Raja Lawak for the first season...together, they formed a group called Jozan in Maharaja Lawak...a program that comprise all the finalists of Raja Lawak for all seasons....I really like this show...especially Jozan...I watched them together as the host of Raja Lawak starting from season 2 until 5...they're bond together...really got the chemistry and their joke was really funny...last week was the second week of Maharaja Lawak...they performed really well...I keep watching their joke many times...not boring at all...huhu....I hope they'll getting better tonight...really like them...!!! Enjoy their performance for ML last week....

What U Waiting For????

Heeee....I guess today is really a blogging mood...After the previous entry I feel like I wanna post another entry....but not that important at all...just wanna try attaching a video in my blog...hehe...so gedik...btw I really likes MIZZ NINA...the way she presented herself and her song was so cute...hehe...I don't know how to describe actually but she do look cute and pretty...her song that featuring COLBY O'DONIS was really fun..I really enjoy that song....maybe it's quite lame but I still wanna put this on my blog hehehe....but this is not their video clip...it's just a video that contain the lyrics...heeee

p/s: hey budak....gi study la...what are u waiting for?????

The LectuRe is Over...it's TimE for the FinaL ExaM...

Hye there....talking about finishing the semester is really fun...no more quizzes, test, and assignments...no more lectures and tutorials..and no need to wake up in the morning for class...that kind of feeling was pretty amazing...finally all the burdens was relieve...phewww....but there's one more thing to be done...the final examination...OMG....so scary when I think of the word E.X.A.M....feel like all the burdens coming back and now it's getting heavier and stressful....sitting in the examination hall for 3 hours is something that torturing me...if I have a bunch of ideas to spill out in the answer paper, then I'll be O.K..but if I have no ideas on what should I do, then I'll be K.O...urghhhhh...I really hate the situation where I couldn't answer the questions because I don't know what it is and when the time given was not enough for me to answer all the questions...miserable..wasn't it???hell yeah...I just hope that everything will be fine and I hope that Allah will help me in any kind of situations during the final exam...I hope that He will make things easier for me and bless me...but before that of course I have to study hard and pray to Allah and then just 'tawakal'...in any kind of situation I believe that Allah is always with me... it is just me, as a human being sometimes neglecting Him and forget about Him...I wish all my friends whose taking the examination soon will doing well especially The Roses, SH, my house-mates and all my classmates...and to everyone on the earth who will be tested soon, just do your best, pray to ALLAH and tawakal....the most important thing is never give up...believe in yourself...everyone was born with their own special abilities...you should know your own ability..your job is just to add-on whatever is lacking and polish it...I believe that in the end you will find yourself on top of others...last but not least GoOd Luck fOr YouR ExaM....!!!! xoxo

Stressed???? Just be cool buddies......

Yess...just stay cool and give your best....You'll be fine...Aminn

Don't take it for granted...success begin with a prayer..

My best wishes to all of you and myself...l

Hope all of us will be smiling when stepping out from the exam hall....

Wondering how your result will be??? me too....keep praying yaw...

Will it be this???? Study hard dulu...don't just hoping....

p/s: last night was tremendous...spending my time with my friends..we watched movie together and singing out loudly in karaoke room...so hilarious...huhu

KAk LimAH in MALayaN TiGer's JerSeY...hahaha...so funny but cute...=)

Huhu...just now I went through a page in Facebook...and guess what I found something very funny and cute...Kak Limah was wearing the Malaysian National Football Team jersey...ouch...so jealous..I don't even own one how come Kak Limah have it???? huhu...the jersey quite expensive ma.....I am so eager to have the original one..seriously..I'll do anything to save up my money to buy one of the original jersey...huhu... poyos je....whatever...btw let's 'layan' kak Limah's pic below...

Kak Limah in her national jersey...I'm so jealous..hikhik

Still Torturing my Brain...

It's already 3.18 am...and yet I still here..on my desk..studying for the second test for QMT that will be on in just a few hours...<10.30 am>;...huhu...don't know why but I still fresh...didn't feel sleepy or tired...but seriously I am bored...so to heal that feeling I watch the AFF Suzuki Cup Final 2010...again..!! I don't know how many times did I watched this match but seriously I never get bored of it...I can stay in front of my laptop and watch the match for 1 hour and 45 minutes...huhu...watch that match while doing my QMT exercises was really fun...but of course I'm more focus doing my study rather than stick my eyes on that match...my ears played the most important role..if I heard some excitement from Dato' Hj Hasbullah Awang, then I'll focus on that match..so if I heard MUSLIM AHMAD's name..he's stunning right...??...well he is.... =)....he already got a girlfriend yaw...so for girls out there who fall in love with him please don't be sad and disappointed ok....hehehe...his gf is really beautiful..they do look sweet together...i like...hopefully they'll be happy forever...hikhik...wanna see their pic together??? well maybe some other time...huhu....ok la...I wanna continue with my study...I really hope that I can do well for this test...hopefully....aminn....xoxo

BLogging Just For FUn....

Huhu...this is what actually I did..I do blogging just to satisfy myself...not for other matters...I never think of makes money from blogging...I'm not an active blogger anyway...I just visit my blog and update it whenever I got times..I never promoted my blog to other except for people that I know and close with...only The Roses knows about me writing in a blog...If I ever invited people to read my blog they must be someone that I trust of...it's ok if there are pople who 'terbaca' my blog..they don't even know me right...so x la malu...hehehe...my blog is just like a diary for me...but it is an open diary...everybody can read it but nobody should know who's the owner...kinda mysterious right?? huhu...it's just for fun...I just express my feeling and thoughts in my blog...biasela...when you don't know how to tell others about what and how you feel, the best thing that you should do is to find other alternative to express it..and of course I chose to blogging...it's work actually...you just write anything that you want and finally you will feel relieve...I've done it so many times and I always find that I will be just fine after that...happy giler...huhu...by the way to those who 'terbaca' my blog you are most welcome...and for those who know who I am just keep it silence yaw...hehehe....

p/s : I wanna spend my holiday in Singapore and fall in love...bole ke ko??? hahaha

Dah La weYh....

 I think it is time for me to stay cool and be positive all the time...no need to think about people who doesn't care about me...kalo diorg bole selfish takkan la aku tak bole kan...sia2 je la hidup kalo asyik nak fikir pasal org len je kan...mulai hari ni prinsip aku adalah..


"Only cares to people who cares about you...ignore people who hurt you...just be yourself...family is much more important...bff are people who always there for you...boyfriend ?? u will find one..insya-Allah...focus on your study...don't think too much about things that doesn't matter...just be cool...stand by yourself if you couldn't find someone to stand with...please try to be more mature...and never give up your life before you get what you're looking for..."

So I hope that everything will be fine..I'll try to forget what had happened and try to act as usual...no hurt feeling yaw...just chillax...Insya-Allah..I'll be fine....<3 

Miss My Blog...!!

Huhu....I'm so excited because finally I got a chance to post something in my blog...I've been through such a horrible weeks recently...seriously...so many test and assignments...well no complaint please..u deserve it cause u r the one who want it..rite???? huhu...don't know what to say actually...so tired and sleepy cause I just got back from my campus..got a test on 8.30pm just now..(yesterday I guess..now already 12.58am) huhu....accounting paper always make me pressure...so tense...but what to do...maybe I don't have enough preparation...I only just hoping that my marks will be just ok...hurmmmm....=(


By the way...I think I'm in love...keh3....no la...just kidding...it's really hard to find a right guy nowadays...why ha??? urmmm....their population are decreasing perhaps...or maybe too many girls for them to choose..ehh?? what's the different???huuuu.....i think i just babbling out with no points...merepek jek....ok la...got to go...ooo...i got to go...hehehe...nyte....=)