Is It A Dead End???

Today is Thursday...yeahhh..everyone knows it...On Saturday there will be another paper for my final examination....I don't know what I feel right now..it seems like everything turned to be wrong for me...all that I do seems to be such like a I'm a loser...yesterday's paper was suck...I really disappointed with my performance..it was a subject that I feel like I can score but then??? the questions was totally unexpected...even though I didn't focus on the all the wrong spot questions and tried to read everything in the book, still I can't answer the question..just imagine this..I went through the book and looked at this sub topic so many times but I never have feeling to read it because it never being such a popular question for several previous semesters...and finally when I got the question paper 'boooommmm'...!!! I feel like I wanna scream and of course I am such a loser at that time..I totally regret it..with all the nervousness I felt like I'm such an idiot in the hall because I couldn't recall perfectly what I've read before...now I still can't forget the moment sitting 3 hours in the exam hall and being an idiot...I blamed myself for such things..how can I be so careless and neglecting the sub-topic and also being such a clumsy person in the hall which later makes my brain blanked??? yesss...blanked!!!! I've read things but it's gone...even though not fully but still I can't accept the way I answer the question...here goes all my hopes to maintain my CGPA....the feeling is still here..if I didn't find any courage I think I may give up...yuppp...the stupidest thing that people will do and now I have thought of doing it...loser....the rest of the papers will be so though and when I couldn't make yesterday's paper perfectly what will happened next??? urghhhh...I feel so stress right now...I really losing my mood to study because I kept thinking about yesterday..I couldn't even smile when I stepped out from the exam hall yesterday...the day was totally horrible with all the disappointment...I just hope and pray that I'll found the courage that I need...I want things to be better for me but...hmmmm....this is so wrong for me....please...really2 need the strength.....